I have been lost since long,
trying to find my voice.
Caught between right and wrong.
Wondering if I had a choice !
Weaving dreams in darkness;
Alone, I was too silent.
None to fight in my loneliness,
it made me sharply violent.
My voice lost,
returned briefly in my words.
At a great cost,
I learned to fly like the birds.
Accustomed to suffering,
my adventures led me too far.
I didn’t know what I was becoming,
slowly, deep within I waged a war.
Been trying to find my voice,
drowned beneath the voices.
Been trying to make that choice,
found between the two choices.
I have bartered my emotions,
for experiences of suffering.
As a dried branch finally snaps
in a torrent of wuthering.
Chasing dreams in darkness,
I knew I had to stumble.
It was when I fell I found,
all my lost voices in a jumble.
Stumbling, falling, failing then rising,
perhaps I will return to normality.
It is the reason why I chose,
to converse in “whispers of immortality.”
– Mayank “Sahar” Mishra